Enough already.....
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Posted:Jun 8, 2008 10:20 am
Last Updated:Jun 9, 2008 9:51 am
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While I enjoy listening to a thunderstorm, I've had JUST about enough of thunderstorms the last 3 days....Roads flooding, power outages, water in the basement....
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UGH!!!!!
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Posted:Jun 5, 2008 10:15 am
Last Updated:Jun 7, 2008 9:34 am
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Had a hard time falling asleep last night, tossed and turned most of the night. Must have fallen soundly asleep at some point, didn't hear the storms or realize we'd lost power so overslept and now feel like I have a sleep hangover....UGH!!!
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A huge dork???
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Posted:Jun 2, 2008 7:10 pm
Last Updated:Jun 5, 2008 3:32 pm
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So I was talking to my HoneyBunny this evening and he was going to watch the baseball game and I was going to watch the Bachelorette..... I think it's cute and funny and romantic....HE thinks it's assinine and retarded.....I'd love to have someone care about me enough to plan an amazing date and wisk me away to a once in a lifetime experience....That's the romantic in me, I guess....HE thinks it's silly and ridiculous and contrived....*sigh*
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Anger, disappointment and worry
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Posted:Jun 2, 2008 5:04 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2008 2:21 pm
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I spent most of the day yesterday crying and upset about something #2 did while he was home over Memorial Day weekend. Part of his program at Job Corps is to pass a urine drug screen. Prior to his entering the program, he was smoking pot nearly daily and he knew his first piss test was going to be dirty....And it was....He takes another 6/5/08 and if that's dirty, he gets kicked out of the program. Before he came home for the weekend, he promised me he'd stay away from pot and not risk getting kicked out by smoking it....Well, yesterday he asks me if I can pick him up on Friday so he can come home for the weekend to attend a graduation party. I again request the promise not to smoke pot and he says that he needs to tell me that while he was home last time, he took 2 drags from a joint but he's flushing his system and those 2 puffs were the ONLY he's done in the last 5 weeks so he should piss clean especially considering he's been flushing his system every day since he got back and it'll be 2 weeks since he smoked it and he should come up clean....
I can't accurately express my anger, disappointment and worry about his lack of judgement about this.... He's willing to piss away (no pun intended)this opportunity to learn a trade he's wanted to learn for as long as I recall, piss away the opportunity to attend advanced training in San Francisco & Paris all for a high???
I slept for crap, have a splitting headache, puffy eyes and feel like barfing....Aren't GREAT????
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Life in the slow lane
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Posted:Jun 1, 2008 8:07 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2008 2:23 pm
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Seems like lately I'm just not into doing nearly anything....That may not be entirely true but it certainly feels that way.... I still do all of my work stuff and have the best of intentions to do stuff socially but when it comes right down to the time to actually DO something, I'd rather watch TV or read a book.....I'm not depressed or anything like that but I'm just feeling solitary and that's annoying.... I've got an idea rumbling around in my head that may make some sense but I'm not sure..... I'm totally disgusted with myself and my weight.... It's been playing around in my head that this issue could be part of the reason I'd rather not go out in public.... I'm embarrassed and uncomfortable about my weight and it's easier & safer to hang out at home than to expose myself to the general public....
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WHAT a push over
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Posted:May 27, 2008 9:28 pm
Last Updated:May 30, 2008 11:21 am
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So, #2 needs to go back to school today. My initial plan was to drop #3 off at school, make the 6 hour round trip & pick #3 up from school....WELLLLLLLLL, #2 whines that he doesn't need to be back to school till 10 P.M. so couldn't we pick #3 up from school THEN drive to Joliet?? Retard that I am, I say OK....I'd hoped to avoid the shitty traffic and wasn't able to do that....Got home just a bit ago with a crappy head ache, a grumbling tummy and a yawn....Should have stuck with my initial plan and been in bed before now...
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That was a pleasant suprise
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Posted:May 24, 2008 2:07 pm
Last Updated:May 25, 2008 2:03 am
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Opened the front door late Thursday evening to #2 who wasn't supposed to be home till around noon on Friday. As it happens, his Dad was in the Chicago area Thursday and all #2 had to do Friday AM was sign out so #2 talked to his dorm counselor and the dorm counselor talked to the fathr unit and he came home Thurs. The other 2 knew #2 was going to be there Thurs. night but wanted it to be a suprise for me and BOY WAS IT!!!! I was speechless (I know, not a normal thing for me). He's excited to be home for the weekend but looking forward to going back to school. He brought home the application for advanced training in San Francisco and if all goes well there, will be sent to Paris or Switzerland for more training....Yikes....
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This might hurt.....
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Posted:May 20, 2008 11:34 pm
Last Updated:May 21, 2008 5:02 pm
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The ex & I took #1 out tonight for his 21st birthday...We met at a local watering hole shortly before midnight and I just got home with #1 ....Lord, I was thinking people would buy shots for the birthday but they did that and also bought for the parents.....MAN, I've not had that much to drink in that short of a timeframe in AGES.....In the 2 hours we were at the bar, I had 3 cocktails and 5 shots....The boy had 3 beers and 7 shots....Time for me to go sleepy night night.....
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I'm SO not old enough for this.....
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Posted:May 20, 2008 2:02 pm
Last Updated:May 21, 2008 5:02 pm
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Well, I've come upon another milestone in life.... My first born turns 21 tomorrow... Seems like just yesterday that he was going off to his first day of school....I'm feeling pretty nostalgic and sentimental....There are a few things I need to tell him and will do so and hope I don't BAWL like a sissy girl....
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American Gladiators
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Posted:May 16, 2008 6:48 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2008 5:39 am
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I must admit to a new guilty pleasure and that is watching American Gladiators.... Not only because of some of the TOTALLY hot gladiators but to see the competitors.....This last installment had a male competitor who was an above the knee amputee and he was SUCH a fierce competitor it was amazing....He never quit, never let his "disability" hold him back... And some of the tasks he competed in were obviously painful to his stump...He had some really jarring blows to the prosthetic device/leg and he just grimaced and kept on trying.... Terribly inspirational....
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How very odd....
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Posted:May 13, 2008 7:13 am
Last Updated:May 13, 2008 4:36 pm
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I got an odd yet interesting phone call this AM that leaves me a bit perplexed. #2 is in Joliet at the Job Corps culinary school and he's been doing OK. He has days that he loves it and days that he misses home and family; neither of which are unusual. So this AM, I take #3 to school, come home and am going to fire up my laptop and do some work when the phone rings. The caller ID says Joliet Job Corps..... I get this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and answer the phone. I can hear I'm on speaker phone and #2 tells me he's there with Ms. F, his counselor, and there's something important what he wants to tell me..... I'm thinking "Awwww, CRAP" and #2 says he just wanted me to know that he's forgiven ex #2 for all of the horrible things he did and feels my HoneyBunny is a good man and will be a good addition to our family... Ms. F then says "This is an important step in #2 letting go of his anger by fogiving ex#2 for his transgressions and forgiving me for making ex#2 a part of our family. It's important to forgive as only then can a person truly move one with their life."
I can hardly wait to talk to #2 later and see WHAT the heck instigated that call.....I've long told him that being angry at ex#2 is counterproductive to living a happy life and that he should just let it go and live his life happily.....
Ms. F then says she feels #2 will do very well in his chosen profession and we should be very proud of him.....Well, DUH!!!! I am proud of my baby.....
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This gnawing pain in my gut
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Posted:May 12, 2008 9:22 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2008 8:08 am
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The last few days I've had this pain in my tummy... More often when my gut is empty, gnawing pain and some nausea.... Me thinks I have myself an u;cer but I'm NOT going to the Dr. to verify that...Sorry, no one is shoving a garden hose down my goose to see if I have an ulcer.... I'll just go get some Nexium and see if that works first....
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VERY odd dreams
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Posted:May 10, 2008 11:19 pm
Last Updated:May 12, 2008 6:35 pm
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I've long wondered what dreams mean or represent. Are they supposed to help us wor through present day problems? Are they just our brains editing out certain happenings? A combination of those factors and more?
In any case, the last few nights I've had THE most odd dreams.....Last nights involved certain members from A*F*F that I've met in the past and one I've not yet met....Does that mean I have unfinished business with these people? Does it mean those were the last blogs I read before I went to bed???
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