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| Hello to all and a Happy New Year 2012!! My name is Mandy I am a CD/TV and a part of a minority group of other CD/TV's that took a narrow path instead of the main stream path the rest are on.
Unlike the mainstream or little faction consider ourselves to be Totally female and we act and react as females. We never switch role's and "do" our partner nor do we use our "deformed" clitties for anything related to a sexual act...some of us, myself included, do the best we can to hide it or find a way to keep it out of the way with our own little idea's or with special garment's designed to do so. Personally I use a special pantie that provides excess to the place a man wants to go with out having to remove them. They are designed to keep the clittie out of the way and hidden. I am currently trying to save up the funds needed to purchase an even more specialized pantie made to look like an actual vaginal area down there. Each pair is specially made to fit the person purchasing it and is fully penetrable in the vaginal opening which is designed to allow total penetration. It also is designed to make the odd clittie I have disappear in a special sheath that is made to use the very tip as the tip of the clitoris in the panty and provides a way to do pp....just like a woman would.
I also belong to another small group of ladies like me. A few of us from the minority group went one step further and either made a vow or a dedication to commit ourselves to be used for one purpose and to focus ourselves 100% to that purpose completely. Almost 3 years ago I made a dedication to that purpose and joined a small group of other ladies spread across the U.S. in usually groups of 4 to 6 of us that have made the choice to dedicate and vow to uphold our group name and symbol in high regard. This group is called S(he)placement's....The photo with this blog is our symbol....our purpose is to be available in the event a GG female denies her husband, lover etc...sexual pleasure. When called upon or only duty is to assume the role of the female for the purpose of sexually satisfying the male and nothing else. In some cases we, I have even been present along with the wife or G/F allowing them to continue their daily routine while we either waited in a special area of the house or apartment or found our own out of the way spot until called upon for sex. I will touch more deep into this in the future....Right now I am going to end this part and start on the next part basically How and when I started doing what I do and a brief hop to my routine of the time. And another part will start on how I changed my routine and went a new direction toward dressing en fem and how from the get go I knew I was not a normal CD/TV. Then from there will reach to the present and where I stand. There also will be a few bits in each part describing certain event's that may be interesting to some, erotic to other's or boring and for the boring I am sorry.
So Part Two will begin with my 1st taste of penis and how I got there and then to my "deflowering" a little later. So stay tuned and by all mean's respond with comment's and or vote on my blog.
Until next Time Huggs >>
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This is an add in and not part of my normal blog but you'll like it
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Posted:Jan 24, 2012 8:38 am
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This little tid bit actually happened yesterday early evening until this morning 01/24/12 it was an awesome time Enjoy!!
Mandy Ann {=}
I arranged to meet a guy in his hotel one day, he saw my pics on Tranny Dates, and he sent me a message telling me how gorgeous I looked, he said he would love to get his hands on me, he was an older guy (which I love) and he said he lived in Colorado Springs and came down to Phoenix about every other month for business.
I don’t like turning up without being dressed as a woman, so I put on my make-up, wig, then I dressed in my white blouse, small black mini skirt, my fishnet body stocking (With hole at the back for easy entry), and then my high heels.
I caught a cab to the motel, walked across the courtyard to his room number and gave a knock to his door and he let me in, his face was a picture as he ogled my body from top to bottom as he opened the door, transfixed and wide-eyed with a little lecherous grin on his face. I could tell this guy wanted me badly, and was going to treat me like the naughty little slut that I am whether I liked it or not.
The look of lust in a man’s eyes always gives me butterflies in my stomach, in anticipation of the erotic pleasure to come.
He let me in and I sat on a chair across from him, he just sat there ogling my crossed legs as if he was the cat who was about to get the cream.
He tapped his hand onto the space on the bed next to him, beckoning me over, he had his radio on playing some sexy music, so I had an idea, instead of going to him, I got up and slowly gyrated my body in a slow sexy way, like a dancer in a strip club, rubbing my hands up and down my inner thighs, turning around showing him my tight pussy, bending and stroking my hands up my legs as my body gyrated to the music, my eyes looking into his eyes.
He moaned with lust and the look on his face started turning me on so much that my nipples started to swell and my inner chamber began to tingle and twitch.
I walked over to him and straddled him, I could feel his erect cock pressing through his trousers, ready to take me, he moaned in pleasure as I rubbed my hands on his cock through his trousers, “I can’t wait any longer” he said as he undid his fly and pulled out his fully swollen 7” cock.
“I want you, ass up doggy style on the bed” he demanded, so I did as he said while stripped off and stood there looking at me lustfully with his cock in his hand…he came over to me then slowly gave me a few pats on my tush ready for him doggy fashion, which stung a little bit but it felt nice.
“Now it’s fun time” he said, as he pulled me closer I could feel his cock pressing by the back hole of my body stocking, he sure was ready to enter me and I was ready for him.
He parted my legs wider, then helped himself to my pussy, a slight resistance as the tip of his cock pressed at the entrance, then he was in, his thick, veined cock greedily thrusting into my yielding pussy, him grunting in perverted pleasure as he roughlyTook me hard and fast, he made me tell him that I was his slut as he groaned with lust while he fucked me harder.
I wanted his cum in my pretty little mouth, so I begged him for it, so when he was ready he put his cock into my mouth and I devoured it in deep throat fashion, taking his cock as far down my throat as I could. I could feel his hot sperm gushing into my hungry mouth and into my stomach.
He pulled his big cock out of my mouth and held it still erect at the base of the shaft and said “Look at that, and you took it all!”
I stayed the whole night, and he fucked me three more times in the course of the evening, I snuggled up to him on the bed and took him into my mouth and sucked him and drank his sperm a few times as he watched the morning news, like a good little slut pleasing a man's penis.
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Just a side note for all
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Posted:Jan 19, 2012 3:24 am
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Sorry  I have not been on or around in a bit but I went out of state, way out of state, to Key West Fl. just got back a few days ago. Had to catch up with all my regular guy visits and check in with other sites i am on as well.
Why didn't I post from the Keys? I did not bring my lap top with  and was truly lost with out it. But had a fantastic time and maybe I'll post that in a bit as well
Mandy
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another chapter late but sorry
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Posted:Jan 19, 2012 2:51 am
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Now as I was saying in the last post I went to a Halloween party at one of the clubs dressed as Tiffany.
Kim had done an awesome make over of me. I was wearing a black spandex tube dress that became narrower as it went down restricting my leg movement to small steps (perfect way to learn how to walk in heels) I wore 2” black clog type heels. I wore a long auburn colored wig that Kim had fixed up into a loose bun with jeweled hair clips. My make-up had been done with those smoky eyes look that went with my new cigarette type Saratoga 120’s ( to this day I look back and remember my look and my move to 120’s) and my sensual look as I let that long cigarette hang from my newly done French manicured nails and the slight pink lipstick stain on its filter. It was at this party not more than 10 minutes after arriving that Mitch made his move and declared me his before anyone else’s. It was also the first time I would say, Oh Yeah You Think So, but I found he knew so.
That evening was the most magical of all. And all of the people who knew rob they now said how much better Tiffany was over him…….at some point during this party I recall myself and Kim going outside for some fresh air and a smoke. During that smoke Kim made me aware of the cars that were slowing down and braking or the one’s that pulled into the back of the parking lot and flashed their brake lights to get my attention (This club was known for picking up TV prostitutes only) I took notice a minute or so after and we counted at least 6 or more that slowed and a couple parked waiting then leaving after they realized I was not coming over. I asked Kim should I do it? She said honey it’s your parade do as you want. The next car to park I am going to go for it I said and within a minute Kim said well then there you are. She pointed to a pickup truck that was flashing it’s brake light’s ( for those unaware…a signal to come and see me I want something) I went towards the truck and as I did I felt how much different I was I felt the dress tug at my legs as I tried to walk but could only take small steps and how my heels made my hips sway more prominently and my wig its hair bouncing as I walked to the truck. As I approached the truck a guy asked what’s up hun what you up to? I said what you need …..20 minutes later he dropped me off with 100 in my bra and a nice load of cum in my belly promising to make sure to look me up 1st before he did any other girl.
I did this two more times that night before going back into the party….Mitch came up and asking if I was out whoring already before he even had the chance to properly do me and allow me to . I remember telling him I do as I do and no one tells me otherwise. I would later make changes to that statement as the evening went on. I drink as I drank then wine or wine cooler’s and after a few white wine’s a girl gets pretty loose and wanting. Out of a few dozen penis’ in the party (of which I danced with a few and let them feel me up and try to get with me) My inner self desired the only man there who had barebacked me and only one who could then. I remember waking up the next morning lying next to Mitch and feeling a wet puddle under my tush. As I reached to see if I had pee’d the bed my hand brushed past his penis causing me to wake him. He looked at me and said Tiffany you are just what I need and he leaned in and kissed me. My hand now at the pool of wetness under me and after feeling it I pulled it up to see what I had put it in and spotted a small glob of sperm that had not yet dried up. Mitch then said ummm the remains of the third load in you. I looked and said what? Mitch told me I had gotten to drunk he offered to bring me home and I offered to thank him 3 times and did I remember what I said to him on the last time he flooded my hole.
I did not……but soon found out……..Mitch and I were now dating (at 27 I had my 1st B/F ever and 1st B/F as a female) at 1st I kind of did not want this to happen. I told him that I can’t have a steady guy as I just loved cock to much any cock and can’t be hooked to just one. Mitch told me he did not want me to change my ways except that I dress more as a female he thought that I was more desirable that way as most all the guys thought so as well from the party. I was however to not allow anyone except him to bareback me as my commitment to him and him alone. As he was saying this to me he again pushed his penis in me and began to make love to me in a way I had not experienced before causing me to have orgasm’s like I had not felt before (and to this day I love having orgasm’s like I had with Mitch as he slowly made love to me and set my world on fire with his steady pumping rhythm inside of my feminine chamber till he exploded in me)
So for the next 14 month’s at least twice a day a warm flow of sperm filled my inner fem chamber and Mitch would set me up with men to suck off or spread for from ads he placed or clubs we went to or internet sites.
He made sure that no man was to large for me to handle and no one over 8.5 average inches was allowed to use me. Every other weekend Mitch would take me to an adult bookstore/theater just a bit south of Chicago. I soon became popular there with several men who had gotten a bit tired of the regular TV hoes there most where overweight drag queens or very unattractive CD’s. I did my best to not step on their toes and mostly stuck to the glory hole booth’s or private viewing room’s. During those night’s I spent most of the evening sucking off cock and occasionally would give up some pussy. I had become more and more addicted to sperm by then and would sometimes bring along a plastic water bottle and fill it with as much as I could so I had something to drink on the ride back home. A year into being with Mitch I was taking care of at least 8 regular visits some once a week and some every other week. In between them out of town men answered ads placed in sex magazine’s or on-line ads. Sometimes I would visit 3 or 4 men at their hotel room a week for 100 or more an hour….Mitch collected the fee’s and controlled the money then I actually saw no money except for when he bought me new clothing or wigs etc and my weekly carton of VS 120’s. On a few occasion’s at a hotel visit the guys changed their mind’s about just getting head and wanted to have it all…..their fee was 50 but for it all it was supposed to be 100.….Mitch was not around to collect this fee and had no idea these guys wanted it all so I told each one that if they would just donate a little more to the fee I’d let them do what they wished…..That money went into my purse for emergency purposes without Mitch ever knowing.
It wasn't’t long before I had over 500 stashed in an old make-up case I no longer used. By this time I had been with Mitch for almost 13 month’s and some times where a nightmare and some times were good. By this time things were usually more bad than good. The icing was put on the cake about 5 month’s later when Mitch did the lowest dirtiest thing to me. In the spare room used as an “entertainment” room there was this kind of waste high looking table on wheels. It had a fake leather like floating top with an adjustable slide bracket in the center of one end and two evenly placed holes a bit from the edge of the top. The slide brace had a couple attachments that where used to either mount a dildo on it and adjust it to what ever the person desired. Early on when it was new to use Mitch would place a 6” dildo on it and adjust the slide to a point that all 6” of dildo was in my mouth Two attached straps were used to keep my head in one spot and my arms where strapped to the front legs. The holes were placed in such a way that once I was laid across the top and strapped down my boobs would poke through the holes for clamping or nipple pumps the back of this cart thing was slightly wider with outward angled legs designed to automatically have me spread open enough for penetration when my legs where strapped to them. A foam like wedge was placed under my hips to raise and position my tush to the proper height for a man to just walk his penis in me without bending down or over. It could either be used stationary or the wheels could be unlocked to roll around the room or house as a man fucked me. In the event that two guys wanna play hid the salami the brace that held a dildo could be removed and another one was used that had a chin rest on it. When placed under my chin and adjusted to the right setting and the hold down straps were in place I could not move my head at all. I’d be locked in looking straight ahead with a mouth spreader in place for mouth and throat fucking as well.
Sorry about the play by play but I need to explain this “table” thing so you would know what I meant by saying I was placed on it. The night it happened Mitch had told me that Pete, his pal, well it was his birthday that day and Mitch offered me to him if he wanted to let off some steam and drain his nuts….mind you I was perfectly okay with this deal because by then I had vowed to completely give myself to any one who desired for the purpose of pleasing the penis sexually and I saw and see myself now as just another piece for sex and cum. I had made that vow like 3 month’s earlier dedicating my body and willingness sexually to any penis that showed desire to want me sexually and to cum in. I also vowed to progress deeper into femininity. I did this in front of Mitch, Pete, Bill and Barb and Traci who witnessed my vow of dedication and also witnessed me sign a paper with those same words on it and each one initialed as witness’.
Please remember the words I said in my vow they come into play in this next segment…..
So about an hour before Pete was to show for his birthday fun Mitch tells me that he want’s me to be on that table thing. I was to wear my cup less bra to make my little boobs puff out more in the holes to put on the nipple clamps with the chain that would be fastened to a hook pulling out my nipples taunt. Pete wanted to see me wear my Peg Bundy style wig and my micro mini with my open back panties. Then I put on some thigh high black lace nylons and 4”pumps. My final step was some smoky eyes and deep glossy pink lipstick with some glamour French tip nails. Just before Mitch strapped me down I had a cigarette and gave Mitch some head. As He strapped me down I used some Vagi-Gard ( a gel that woman use to help with vaginal dryness ) I did this cause Mitch had told me that Pete was bringing a friend and both would be using me…..In past experiences I knew it would be awhile before they were done and I need to be wet inside. ( this gel is not a lube but is placed deep in the vaginal chamber and is slowly dispersed during sex and acts like Teflon to me)
After being strapped down and my boobs were placed in the openings my nipples clamped and hooked tight enough to stretch them out about ½ “ Mitch put the slide part on that held a dildo and adjusted it so that most all of the 6” dildo was in my mouth. Then he placed a long table candle into my opening and unlocked the wheels to be able to role me into the living room when it was time. I thought nothing of it at the time I’d been through this a few times before……or so I thought. About 10 minutes past and then the doorbell rang…there’s Pete and his friend right on time be right back for you cunt Mitch said and lit the candle in my pussy hole as he walked out. To see me like that was real hot I could see myself in a mirror in the room. About 5 minutes later Mitch came back her we go cunt your going to really enjoy this I hope.
I was wheeled into the living room with the “birthday candle” lit in my pussy-hole and my involuntary sucking off the dildo while my nipples where tugged on as the tabled rolled into the room…..I only saw Pete and wondered where is friend was as Mitch sang happy birthday to him and said blow out the candle and make your wish….make it s good one though.! Pete did and pulled out the candle then began to eat me out a little slopping his tongue al over my pussy and fingering the hole till he had three in comfortably making me suck that dildo to hell and back while Mitch pushed the spring loaded dowel down abit that held the chain to my nipples pulling them a little more taught. I was feeling real good by this time having pictures run through my head of Pete, his friend and then for sure Mitch having turns in both ends of me…….
Then the mood shifted as I heard Mitch ask Pete who was going first Pete or his buddy Max…..at the sound of hearing that name I tried to mumble Mmaghx Mmaghx whaft noo was sort of all you heard as I tried to let my position be known with a mouthful of dildo. Max you see is Pete’s Grand Poodle ….this was his friend he brought…..Pete then said well I been thinking and I’ve decided that the best present for me is to see my buddy Max get his nut off in her….I began to do the best I could to break free from that table before I had a dick in me….usually the restraints that hold my arms and legs are not really strapped down and locked but I failed to realize that Mitch did just that I was not going to get free from this and my head was also locked into the slide frame not going anywhere fast!! A couple seconds later Mitch loosened the clamp that held the dildo in my mouth and slide it away from me as the dildo broke free of my mouth I spewed out all types of hell no and you bustards you can’t do this I don’t do that Mitch you know this!!!!
It was at that time I was reminded of the vow that I said in front of witnesses to>>to provide sexual pleasure to any penis that desired to have me<<<……Mitch repeated those word’s to me and reminded me I had vowed in front of him, Pete and my own friends those words and even signed a paper witnessed copy. It was about that time that Pete walked Max into the room and in front of me pointing down between the dogs hind legs saying hell Tiffany that looks like a penis to me what about you Mitch? Yep sure does Pete….
I chimed in and said I was talking about men you know that I never said a or dogs at all…….
Mitch said well you never said anything but being available for penis’ never mentioned whose at all bitch so I’m thinking if this gets a hard on for you you are obligated to give him a good time don’t you think?
Pete said hey you may get lucky and he won’t want your cunt slut……then he said or ….maybe…he will…should I tell the Mitch? I tell her…..It was then explained to me that as Pete stopped eating out my pussy making it all sloppy with saliva and began fingering me he was also placing the scent of a female all over my hole from a small container he brought with that held some of the fluid leakage of a neighbor that Max had been trying to hit for a week. All we gotta do is lead him to that spot he gets that scent and o’boy parrrrtyyy!!!! God no you can’t come on don’t Mitch Pete don’t I pleaded.
Then I felt the cold wet nose of Max sniffing my pussy and a tongue lapped at me making me tense up and say Nooooo Noooooo, God don’t come on a joke is a joke. Who is joking Pete said as he stood in front of me and undid his pants let out his half stiff penis and pushed it into my mouth…this is gonna be a blast never saw this in person saw lots of video’s though.
Suddenly, I felt something warm brush across the opening of my pussy. I felt Max against my back his paws latching just below my boobs. A warm feeling pushed inside me like I'd never felt before. Oh I knew what was! but he wasn't willing to stop. Again he pushed. This time it was deeper than I expected, and he felt larger than I had anticipated. It was painful, and it was pleasurable as my arms begin to quiver. With each thrust, I thought he could go no deeper than he could grow any bigger. Continue to swell inside me as I moaned loudly lost in a hazy moment where max's warm shaft grew inside me.
I winced as he sunk into my cunt all the way to the base
of his cock. Instinctively I tried to wiggle free of the knot. No way was he getting that inside me. I hurt so bad and each thrust made me lightheaded.
He fucked me for only about a minute, shooting warm
doggy cum inside my soaked pussy.
Warm cum trickles from my
cunny and down my thighs. I won't be able to stand this
long either. He cums a lot ! As he
dismounts I immediately beg for Pete to take him away and as he does so I feel Mitch's rock hard cock drive deep inside of me pushing out a river of jizz down my thighs god that was fucking hot he says as he pumped a few more times then withdrew and brought his cum stained penis to my mouth taste it bitch and clean it off me.....just as his prick slide in he let loose a mad load that caused me to gag a bit and a bit of his cum leaked from the sides of my mouth as now Pete's thick cock plunged into my swollen pussy as it slipped around inside he grabbed my hips and fucked me deep and hard till I heard him let out a load “Fuck YEAH “ and his cock exploded inside of me while Mitch pushed his dick into my throat and cheered him on as a smaller spasm of cum leaked down into my belly.
I was kept strapped to the table for about a half hour after they had their fun Mitch would occasionally rub his fingers around my oozing hole and bring them to my mouth to lick clean of cum and his buddy Pete's saying shit what a fuckin turn on that was gotta do this again for sure! I said oh no that is the 1st and the last time no more!! My answer back was something like who the fuck are you cunt! Your just a fuck bag bitch you got no say I own you! He then began to push me back into the bedroom and loosened up my head straps and wrist straps say get the rest off yourself bitch and then get your nasty ass cleaned up and dressed I gotta nice place I wanna take you to in a little while.
An hour later and I felt somewhat human again fresh make-up change of clothes and I changed to my long brunette wig with little curls. I was just wearing a simple ladies top with hello kitty on the front and a pair of Gloria Vanderbilt jeans that had a zipper that started in the front and zipped the left and right legs together ending at the back and of course a fresh pair of panties and a gel bra then headed out to the kitchen area for a glass of wine and a cigarette. I was furious but in a way he w as right I had no say according to promises I made and in a way I was wrong but they still should not have done that to me. Mitch came into the kitchen and looked me over looks ok for where I wanna take you…then he pointed at my top and said Don’t you have a top with dogs on it? And he laughed as he walked away I thought he might be taking me someplace to get a drink and maybe something to eat when he asked me if I was a bit hungry I said I could use a bite to eat and maybe a good stiff drink. No problem and off we went.
And about 20 minutes later pulled into the parking lot of……an adult bookstore/theater….I thought you were taking me to eat I said ( stupid question ) I did he said hot food and that stiff drink you need lets go. For two hours I sucked cock in glory holes and in the theater while Mitch collected 10 bucks a pop and another 50 from a guy who took me out by the dumpster and got a quick piece then shot his load on my face.
About then I’d had it things where not good and Mitch was an asshole I heard him tell some of the guys I was now a cum dump for dogs as well. I was pissed.
I’ll spare the long winded story and just say within 4 days of talking with Traci and knowing I had over 500 saved up and making plans to vacate Mitch. 2 days later one of Traci’s friends called to make a visit at a motel down the road only it wasn't’t a visit but a way to get me out. I was only able to take what I had and that was it. Once I got to the motel I took a cab there….Traci and her G/F were waiting with the friend. We got into her mini van and headed down the highway south to Alabama.
Sorry this was a long and very hard part to talk about so I’ll stop here and pick up from Alabama where I made another vow or dedication that I still follow and commit to Today,
Mandy
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As I was saying.....continued
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Posted:Jan 4, 2012 11:55 pm
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I am jumping a bit towards my deflowering but wish to add that by the time I had reached my 17th birthday and to my 18th I was already on the way towards craving sperm.
By my 18th birthday I was averaging 12 to 20 bj's a week when i could and now was swallowing each load and becoming more and more attached to sperm. Traci the neighbor girl had also found out about my life style and also told me that I no longer needed to "borrow" her panties and bra's from her as she had already known about my prior "borrowing". I learned that she was a bi-sexual girl and had friends in the same type of life as I. With Traci as an allie in my life I was able to do things I could not do normally...like ask my mom to be able to stay out later some nights or can i go here sometimes....Traci was my back she would say to my mom I'll be with him or can i take him with me to ....I'll watch him. Until this time I had never been with a girl before (that my mom had seen) and in her eyes she thought that Traci and i were together and that worked out just fine. But if she knew that our time together was far from what she thought oh my!
Traci had a friend named Kim who she sometimes enjoyed having fun with and it was through her that I also found fun with some of her friends. One such friend had a friend whom I previously had sucked off a 40 something yo guy with a nice cock and a load to die for! As my 18th approached I was asked what i really wished to have for a gift......things came out like girl clothes make-up make over etc I said I wanna loose my cherry and I want Al to do it! Al was the 40 yo he had a 6" cock that to me was the bomb. he had never seen me dressed as a girl before but knew I wore panties and I wanted to be dressed as a girl for that special moment.
Traci had told my mom that she had a special party set up for my 18th and could she do it with all my friends after my mom had her party with all the relatives. (she believed by now that Traci and I were boyfriend and girlfriend) It was ok with her for the next day. So the next day Traci set up a surprise party for me and she had Kim do a make over and turn me into a cute little girl like I always wanted to be. I had no idea of the party and after being made into Tiffany (a name I chose earlier) we went to the normal place we always went to meet our friends, only for me to find out it was a party for me Oh Yeah!
Besides Traci and Kim their friends Carol and Amanda were there and then Tim, Joey, Bobbie, Cal, and Carl were there as well. Most all liked my new look but a few liked me as i was before Carl being one of them. And it was him I wanted to loose my cherry with. The party went on we all had fun but I was trying to get my hole popped and it was not happening the way I wanted. Grant you that I had everyone else wanting to do it but I was holding out for the one I wanted and just blew everyone else. I felt what was going on and felt bad. The night ended with out my wanted gift and to me was a disaster.
The next night i went out to the "line" and did my usual bj's as my normal self and not Tiffany it was then that Carl drove by and picked me up. Once in his car and heading to the normal bj spot i used I asked him about last night and why he did not come on to me as i had hoped. He told me he liked me as i looked right now not as i did last night and that was why he did as he did. I asked so I am more appealing this way (as my male self) then as I was last night? Yes he said you are much more appealing as you are now. So I thought it was the right way to be and asked him to pop my cherry. So 10 minutes later in a dark alley I lay on my back with my legs spread open and felt the 1st of many penis' enter my opening. Although he was just 6" I will say it felt like a 20" dick with a thickness of 2 baseball bats until my hole relaxed and let him in. Then it was pure heaven and felt oh so right. And there about 10 minutes later I received his sperm in me...to this day I still feel it flowing in me and the shear pleasure I felt as it did..(not really knowing that so soon I'd understand this feeling as if I were a woman hoping to be impregnated) it seemed like forever as I felt his warm thick sperm flow inside of me and I thought to myself how I just could not wait to have this feeling again.
It was Traci who told me that I should not let every tom dick and harry do this that I needed to be careful and safe in my new found pleasure. She said that the feeling is the same when a guy uses a condom just no flood in me and I can always take it orally to satisfy my need. This further moved me into craving sperm as so far to this day only 7 men have put their sperm inside me and all other's have shot it in my mouth........
From the 1st time Carl came in me he now always did when he wanted to fuck and I remember having another guy do me not long after Carl fucked me full of cum as his condomed penis enter me and just rushed in on Carl's sperm still in me oozing out of me as he fucked me and his wanting to know why he had to use a condom when some other guy had already came in me. And then my answer was that it is for special guys use and he was not one of them at that time.
Jumping ahead to when I was 25......by this time I was a well known male and had a good regular following of guys. I had consumed gallon's of sperm and had various sizes of penis' to 8" in me but had only received sperm in me from Carl who by now had stopped cruising the area I worked for at least a year. I still had my desire to be female and privately did my dress up at home. I also was now living in an apartment that Traci and i had rented (my mom still thinking we were a couple) Traci was now lesbian full time and Kim was her girl....I was still free and easy with no man in my life except the one's i suck off or spread for nightly. By then I was craving to feel that rush of sperm in me again and new or as I thought i knew that I could only get it as rob. And as I did my nightly business I would secretly take notes in my head of each one I did to see if maybe I might find another to fill my hole like Carl used to.
A few weeks later I found Mitch a 50 something guy with 7.5" and he knew how to work every inch of it too. (notice how I am 25 but go after much older men to seed me) on that night, he had picked me up about a dozen times before and having felt his condomed penis do it's magic in me and tasting his almost always thick and tasty load in my mouth, I had a desire to feel it flow inside of me. As the usual pickup went we would usually go to this spot I used but this night I said how would you like to do something a little different? After he asked how different I then invited him to my apartment as no one was home at that time and we could have some fun. Nothing different as to what he desired but much more pleasing.
5 minutes later we were in the apartment and headed to my room as we entered he noticed that I had some bra's and panties on my bed along with some female clothing that Traci had given me and laid on my bed along with some of her make-up she no longer needed and a note that said for you Tiffany enjoy. So you dress too huh Mitch said I said yes I do but I am just starting and not really ready to do so out of my room.
Bet you would look good he said and I said you think so? You have a nice body for it he said would love to see what it looked like dressed. The birth of my femininity was about to start only I chose to stay as i was that night promising to dress up pretty another time. My mind was fixed on bareback sex then not looking sexy and as I lay back on my bed and pushed the clothing off I spread my legs and said it is your's bareback I want to feel you cum in me. A few seconds later as a rush of pleasure filled my body Mitch's 7.5 " penis became the second cock to do me bare. This time I felt a bit different as his penis slide in and out of me I had more inner awareness and my senses became more acute my nerves more sensitive and my inner hole more sensitive as well.
As normally Carl took about 10 or 15 minutes to release his seed Mitch was now past that time frame and his motion never wavered as he fucked me leading his penis almost totally out of me then slowly easing it back in all the way to it's base deep in me then he would like wiggle it aroung in me before he slowly began to withdraw it again. I started to feel hightened sensual awareness and found myself letting out small moans and groans and occasional low key screaches as his penis dove in deeper....now at least 45 minutes had passed and I was in a new heaven an uncontrollable on controlled by the motion of Mitch's penis then it happened I lost all senses and my nerves went to hell as my body turned to jello and I just went into a blissfull and sexual void....my body automatically pushed itself down his penis to the base my hole began to squeeze it tight and clamp on uncontrollably making milking motions while Mitch tried to continue his motion in me finding it harder to pull up and out and easier to push down and into me and he just went with it having a pleasant feeling he exploded and gushed his sperm deep in me which caused me to scream out and my body involuntarily shook and shuddered as his sperm flowed in me God That Was A Great Feeling!!!!!
Later that night night I had a talk with Traci and told her what I had experienced. She ssaid it sounded like I had an orgasm to her but couldn't be sure. She then told me about her feelings at orgasm which I agreed I had some of those feelings as well but how could I. Two days later I had a doctor's appointment and I told him about what I had experienced a few night's before (he was very aware of my sexual oriantation) he asked had I ever had this feeling before and i said sort of but not like that. He asked had I had a test before to determine orgasm's anally I said no I had not. A test was taken and I found out that I was among a rare few people who could experience orgasm anally (only now I do not see it as how he said anally but as nothing more than Vaginally as I do not see nor recognize my hole as nothing but a Vagina, Cunt, Twat, Pussy etc...)
So just before my 26 birthday I found out about my ability to orgasm and this further pushed me into my desire to femininity. Also by that time I had felt sort of out of place when sucking cock or spreading my legs I felt ucky not all into it. I once sat back and made a list of things I liked and disliked about my life and what I did. At one time thinking maybe I was goin at life wrong and should be with girls instead (to this day I have never been with a girl in a male female sexual way) I found that all the things I liked and enjoyed had to do with the penis....I liked sucking them, I liked swallowing cum, I liked being fucked, I was more attracted to cock sexually than anything else and I saw females as someone that I should be. And I decided to change my way of being and asked Traci and Kim to help me reach that goal.
Holloween night that year at a party held at one of the clubs on the "line" I went out as Tiffany and a new chapter of my life was about to begin.........
That part will be in my next blog installment Stay Tuned
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Mandy
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Posted:Jan 1, 2012 7:29 am
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As a I lived in Hammond Ind. half a block from State Line Ave. so named because crossing the street put one in Cal City ILL.
The particular section of this street went about a mile or so N.W. to a T street. For that mile or so every building on the ILL. side was either a bar or club. Each one catered to a different clientele...Rock, Country, Watering hole, Dance Club, Member's Only bar's etc.
Of those 4 places strictly catered to gay, lesbian, cd/tv/ts/tg. And almost every night there would be a Representative or two or more of each group available to anyone who desired company. As a 15 y.o. I used to walk that street to get to a local mom & pop store for candy, snacks or soda and saw what was going on and was aware of the "territory" each group claimed. At that time I lived with my mom in a duplex house half block away we had recently moved there just before summer. At the old house I think around 13 I first started playing around with being girlie just to do something. I really had no friend's and was mostly picked on in school as the class runt...almost everyone in my class was taller and heavier than I was.
I took after my mom who was petite and barely 5' tall. I was petite and about her height back them but I also wasn't filling out like all the other boy's in my class who were developing muscle tone and stuff. I stayed thin and recall a time one bully telling his friends if I had longer hair and was walking ahead of him he'd think I was one of the girl's he even got a girl's butt he said. The neighborhood I lived in was really no better there were 3 other boy's on the block but none took the time to even say hi. And after hearing remarks of how girlie I looked I started thinking about it.
One day over the summer while my mom was at work and the neighbor lady Barb kept an eye out on me from her house, occasionally calling me over to make sure I was ok and to give me lunch or snacks, I snooped around my mom's room and borrowed a few things to try on and then each other time I'd go a bit farther but felt kinda funny using my mom's things so never put her undies on or other stuff. It was also around that time I started to smoke cigarette's and occasionally snuck one of my mom's Kent Golden Light's to smoke. Barb also smoked but not like my mom who smoked to the filter, Barb would leave half cigarette's around her house with copper colored lipstick stains on the filter's some still freshly put out I'd steal a few good butt's and when at my house smoke them sometimes the lipstick would come off on my lips and when I wore lady clothes gave me a little lip color.
This was the start of something that really did not come full turn for a long time. Now after our move I really never thought much about girlie things being in a new place and all I explored allot. And as if it mattered the neighborhood we moved into was mostly full of older people with way older than I or grand way older than I. The people next door to us had a who was a senior named Traci. She was kinda cool would say hi and sometimes would ask me if I wanted to walk with her to the little store. And occasionally hung around to watch me when my mom had to go to work at night to make sure I was okay. I was 15 I could handle it. But my mom also seen I probably couldn't fight my way out of a wet paper bag and felt better having someone around to keep me company.
On occasion I would borrow some of moms stuff and play girlie when I could and began to see myself as one more each time. At some point I somehow managed to sneek a pair of panties from Traci when I was at her house and pretty much wore them daily under my clothes. Around then I also started to imagine I was being taught how to suck dick using a cucumber stolen from the fridge. Within a few weeks of moving in mom sent me to the little store to get her cigarettes with a note and our phone number which the man called a few times to verify I was buying her cigarettes and not me. Eventually he stopped calling when I went to do so and it opened the door for me to buy a pack for myself with chore money (although I could only buy Kent like it was for my mom)
The more I played the more I practiced sucking and the more I imagined the cucumber to be a penis. One early summer night with chore money in hand I headed for the little store for cigarettes. After I got there I realized I had somehow dropped my money on the way over and doubled back to find it. I slowly walked down State Line Ave looking for the 3 dollars totally not thinking about the area and it's attraction. Just a petite fem looking 16 yo in blue gym shorts and wearing panties with a white tank top slowly walking down the street. I did not even notice this car had cruised by me like 5 times.
To get to State line I always took this little alleyway and so I turned and headed down it still looking for my money when I heard a car pulling in behund me and moved to the side to let him pass. He slowed as he got to me and asked how was i doing I said okay but I dropped some money and I'm trying to find it. Was it allot he asked I said only 3 dollars I need it to buy something at the store. Somehow we got into a conversation where I explained I walked all the way there till I realized and also said I always walk down here and this way.
Then the guy said I could help you out if you can help me out. Having a blonde moment I stepped closer to his car and said help you with what? He lifted up his shirt that was covering his undone pants and his exposed penis. I stood there for a good second till I felt his hand rub my butt as he said You look very hot and I just thought you were you know working. Umm I wasn't really I said as he continued to feel up my tush. I'll bet you would if you wanted to or you wouldn't be wearing panties. I looked down and noticed that the outline of the French cut panties could be seen in the street light. You lost 3 dollars he said I'm willing to give you 30 dollars.
30 dollars I said right here to do what? Oh not here to close to the street and too many cops. I don't need to get busted with you I'd get hung. The words where then came out before I knew what I said and he said a little spot down the street not far get in. My body moved before my brain realized. I would later come to understand, not because of the guy or the 30 dollars but because of the penis. A block later he pulled into another alley and parked in a little carport at an abandoned house right behind where I lived. He said I use this spot a lot you know....lets see if all that practice paid off. He told me he saw me a few times playing in my room (which faced the alley and my curtains where shear so he seen it all)so that night july 12th 1987 at 16 I tasted the 1st of 100's of penis' and two weeks later my 1st taste of sperm and the start of my addiction to it began.
For the rest of that summer I only met up with that guy who paid me 30 everytime and sometimes another 20 when he felt up my tush and rubbed my hole with his fingers. At one point I even told him to put them in it but he said not yet wait your not ready for that. By the end of my senior year of high school I was regularly sucking off 12 cocks a week when i could get out to do it and most all right behind my house. I found that those feelings I used to get inside at the site of or thought of penis was my own way of being sexually aroused. I only a rare few times noticed any movement in my pp area and wondered why cause I felt good and had things happen in my senses but no action in the pp.
***I am sorry I drug this out a bit more than planned****
So I'll pick up to the week after my 18th birthday my "deflowering"
Stay Tuned
Mandy Ann More
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