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up dates, up dates up dates. So I know I've neglected the friends on this site for a while and figure it's time to fill some of ya'll in on what's been going on in Ken's crazy life lately. I'm not sure where I left off at, and am too lazy to read previous post to pick it up, so I'll just start by saying my last semester of school went well, but I'm not enrolled this one because I've been training an apprentice for the past few months. Work pretty much gave me the choice of work, or school, and as much as I want to get that degree taken care of before I'm old, I need money, so I stuck with work. In the recent months I've been hanging out on other sites, and meeting more people. Had several good things and friends come of that, but I found one in particular where I felt the match was best suited. So what did I do? I called off all the other relationships to focus on this one. (Sound familiar anybody?) Aside from having a lot of women in North East KS. pissed at me for suddenly going off the market things went fairly well. A couple of really attached ones gave me a bit of grief..but I think they are over it, and we're all still friendly...at least I hope. Others showed their true colors, and when they did it, I was able to show them that is why they are not the ones who captured my heart. So another thing I did that admittedly was pretty stupid, and something that I'd normally advise a friend not to do is let this person move in with me. The original plan was into my spare bed room where I could get to know her better and gage if a relationship would work out, but our first night in the house together, and we realized, things were more then just a mutual crush. After a lil deliberation, we decided to enter an exclusive relationship, and I began to leak the news out a bit. Still have a spare room for rent too. LOL. The relationship is odd in several ways, but I feel that this is the type of woman who possess all the characteristics and looks that I like. Of course I've had to take a lot of slack from friends who are concerned, and even went as far as telling one of them not to insult my intelligence when she scoffed at the news, and said "I hope she robs you blind." Really? Do you think that a guy who's job used to be catching and arresting liars all day long is gonna be suckered just by a pretty face? Not to mention that I have a lot better grasp on human understanding then most people I know. With out getting into too much details, yes this woman has been knocked on her ass and humbled. I'm doing all I can to help her rebuild herself because I see the spark in her that is trying to do it independently, and just needing a little help. I'm fully aware of the fact I can be getting used, or taken advantage of but that doesn't change the mission. Only adds caution to the feelings. One night I was having some heart palpitations and this woman was scared for me. Tears in her eyes, I don't know many people who'd fake that unless they had at least a little caring in them. Sexually she was pleasing in every way that I like...well, for the most part, but she tried. Then recently we've hit a wall. After all this bliss and passion, I try to initiate some loving one night and get an "I'm not really in the mood right now." I say no problem right? Everybody gets that way sometime....but then it happens the next night too. I let it slip by again, and luckily kiss my way into some lovin' later....then another brick is added to the wall when a third time I get this reply to my attempts at getting some pleasure from this woman I've come to adore. I can only handle so much rejection I tell her. If it's gonna be like this, you may as well move your stuff back into the other room and sleep there as well...instead of with a horny brooding guy with a hard on. But now, I'm going to choose my words carefully...Because I know full well that she may read this, and what transpired in words that night maybe better for me put down by keyboard. She explains that she doesn't need it as much as me. Which I understand...where it's my preference to get it twice or more a day from a live in girl friend, I am okay with taking a day or two off from it....but further she adds that she does not want to feel like a piece of meat. Now this somewhat upset me as I've given her nothing but respect from the start....and it's not about meat to me, it's about feeling accepted by someone who claims to be into you. I told her that intellectually I understand, but emotionally I feel rejected, and that I hate to compare her to other women in my life, but she's giving off a vibe like my ex who'd go fridged for weeks at a time, and a former fwb who was down on her luck and moved in with me for a while sleeping in the same bed forbidding me to touch her sexually. Now I may be jumping the gun greatly....because this has only been happing a few days, and I understand she's in a funk recently, but a man like me needs to know he's appreciated, and cared for, and the best way to show that is with some head...No, seriously...I mean I told her if the shoe was on the other foot, if eating her out was one of her only joys...I'd do it even if I wasn't in the mood....I got a sympathy hand job from her outta that one...which was sorta insulting in it's self since I can do that on my own. So my feelings tear at me by respecting her feelings, but not wanting to feel neglected myself. I know I can bust the dominant attitude out if I wanted, but I'd rather have it given to me as a gift to make me feel good, not because I feel I have to put a woman who has now claimed exclusive rights to my cock in her place. But here is where the problem lies. I'm not a cheater when I'm with someone. However I feel it's not right to have a warm nekkid woman sleeping next to me with out giving it up as desired, if she is really in fact bent on pleasuring me in order to make me feel special. By not doing so, she is basically the same as every other female friend I have that I don't fuck....and that's not right when she has exclusive rights to the pleasure rod....and how easy to please I am, but lately..funk or not, I feel she's putting no effort into trying to. I can wait it out for a while...see if the funk and stress lift in a few days, possibly a week...but I'm a 33 year old man who is sick of wasting time. My dick don't work right half the time as it is, I don't wanna wait until it fails completely. But waiting is what I'll do, for her sake and mine. I'll wait shallowly on the side focusing on the bigger picture instead of my immediate gratification...but I fear that if I find myself waiting too long, I'll have to call things off, as I am a sex addict, and a tad bit greedy when it comes to my pleasures. But I'll be god damned if I'm letting another fridged woman like my ex into my life. I DESERVE BETTER, and I'm worth it. Mothers would kill to have a guy like me in their 's life to take care of them. Is it so much to wanna be taken care of in my own little way in return? I'm done ranting for now. Updates will be sure to follow as news transpires. Ken  |
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11/13/2008 5:50 pm |
Well my sweet ~ I don't think what your asking is unreasonable at all. Maybe it's just a bad time of the month for her!! I hope she (and you) get out of this funk and get things back on track asap M  [post 1718784] This place is full of them!!
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I hear you. Getting shot down constantly made me stop asking and come to this site. It gets old and it isn't right and a better explanation at least, is deserved. Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.
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11/14/2008 8:58 pm |
 I'm going to try to be on my best behavior when I comment about this...I don't understand it...I'm sure you know that if I was living with you, I'd never reject you. I hope things get better for ya soon...you sure as hell deserve to be treated better...speaking of which, I am going to go kick myself again for a stupid decision that I made a couple of years ago!  SN
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11/15/2008 8:46 pm |
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}^haha its blowjob smiley! good times loveyabye nik
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Hello sexy, no time no see or hear. You know I have tried to contact you via messenger but it keeps telling me you are a mobile device or something. I was happy when I was reading that you had found someone but felt saddened to read that the honeymoon phase seems to be over already. I hope you two can sort things out. Hope everything else is going to plan. Good to see here again. Linda xxx
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11/16/2008 6:39 am |
blowjob smileys jaw is getting tired. its for a b l a c k guy so it has to be open really wide and its getting tired in the joints lol
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